ALL OF THE DARKNESS HAS CONSUMED MY SOUL. I HAVE NOTHING LEFT HERE IN THIS WORLD TO LOOK FOWARD TO.  THAT PERSON IN MY LIFE THAT MEANT THE WORLD BROKE MY HEART.  SHE WAS THE GUIDING LIGHT IN MY LIFE.

EVERYTHING THAT I EVER DID I DID TO MAKE OUR LIVES BETTER TO LIVE IN AND ALL SHE DID WAS BRAKE MY HEART TO THE POINT OF NO RETURN.  I AM A GOOD MAN.  I AM ALMOST TO THE LIMIT BEFORE ANY GOOD MAN WOULD GO OFF AND REACH OUT AND TOUCH THE DARKNESS IN EVERY MAN..

WHAT TYPE OF MAN DOES NOT GET TO THAT POINT IN OUR LIVES.  I HAVE DEALT WITH EVERY THING FROM LOSING A CHILD TO, MY FRIEND ALMOST KILLING HER SELF, TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS DIEING IN HIS SLEEP ONE DAY.

I HAVE ON IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE SOUGHT DEATH AS WAY TO EASY THE PAIN IN MY SOUL.  BUT I NEVER FOUND THAT TYPE OF PEACE IN MY LIFE.  I HAVE SEEN THAT DAY IN MY LIFE WERE NOTHING MATTERS ANY MORE.  THE ONLY THING THAT I HAVE FOUND IN MY LIFE IS THAT THERE TWO  THINGS THAT MEAN ANYTHING ONE IS PAIN IS THE MAIN COURSE IN LIFE, AND SECOND THE ONLY PEACE IN OUR LIFES IS THAT OUR BODYS DIE AND OUR SOUL WONDERS THE BLACK OBLIVION FOR ALL TIME. FOR EVERY CHOICE IN LIFE THERE IS A EQUAL OR EVEN A GREATER EVIL THAT YOU MUST FACE IN LIFE.  WITH THAT SAID YOU MUST HIND FROM THE DARKNESS UNTIL THAT DAY WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO LOSE THEN YOU HAVE THAT OPTION TO LEAVE EVERYTHING TO THE DARKNESS AND ENTER THE WORLD OF THE BLACK OBLIVION THAT WE ARE LOCKED AWAY IN AFTER OUR SOUL DIES AND LEAVES THIS WORLD.  

WHAT DO YOU THINK IS MY CHOICE IN THIS LIFE I AM TO DIE OR AM I TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD AND LVIE IN PAIN SURROUNDDED IN A VEIL OF DARKNESS.